I think virtually everyone, except perhaps the very Zen or very old, goes through life haunted to some degree by the feeling that this isn’t quite the real thing, not just yet – that soon enough, we’ll get everything in working order, get organised, get our personal issues resolved, but that till then we’re living what the great Swiss psychologist Marie-Louise von Franz called the “provisional life.”
“Are you still under the illusion that you’ll one day reach a point in your life where you no longer have any problems?”
Hahahahahahahahaha 🙃 yeah I sometimes fall prey to this magical wishful thinking.
Yet they rarely escape the trap of implying that once a habit’s been implemented, it’ll become totally automatic – and life’s suffering, at least in that domain, will have ended for good.
Makes me think of Fight Club: “You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you’re satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you’ve got your sofa issue handled.” – Chuck Palahniuk
Allow yourself to imagine what it might feel like to know you’d never fully get on top of your work, never become a really disciplined exerciser or healthy eater, never resolve the personal issue you feel defines your life’s troubles.